Public Accountability or Discouragement

So for the past couple days, I have been writing and then rewriting this particular post. There are probably a million different versions. Some being as big as War and Peace, while others are able to be posted to Twitter. In light of that, I am opting to just say it like this: I am a big guy! Not necessarily super tall, but definitely on the heavy side of life. At one point not so long ago, I was tipping the scales at over four hundred pounds. The reasons as to why, while valid, are simply nothing more than nicely worded excuses. At the end of the day, I am responsible for me. So having said that, today I am going to pull back the curtain and share a behind the scenes glimpse into my life and what I am doing to fight the fat!

In January, my wife told me that she wanted to participate in a weight loss challenge through a friend's Facebook group. At first I wasn't really all into the idea, but it was important to her and so on the last day possible, I signed up. We took different approaches at first on our journey for weight loss. She had been using the Weight Watchers app and online plan; whereas, I was just winging it. Clearly winging it is not the best thing in the world, so I asked her to show me the app and explain it to me. I really liked how they turned it into a numbers game. What I mean is that you enter all of your details into the application and it assigns you a number of daily points and an extra allotment of weekly points that you can dip into if needed. It also has assigned various points to all sorts of foods. So you simply plug in how much you ate of something and it shows you how many points you used. Stay under cap and you are probably going to see a difference.

We also joined a gym and would hit cardio, followed by some strength training. My wife was not as excited about this and she felt like she wasn't getting the results that she wanted. So we went back to the drawing board and did some research. At the end, we now start with ten minutes on the treadmill at a moderate pace, then off to the weight training, and finally back to cardio for a hard push for thirty minutes. We started seeing much better results on the scale and I could feel the difference personally in how my body was responding. If there is interest in a more technical explanation, let me know and maybe a future post can cover that. The challenge ran for six weeks and at the end of it, I had dropped over twenty pounds, two shirt sizes, and one pants size!

Then came March and the corona virus. The gyms locked down and we did the best we could. We would take the family on walks, go and play basketball at the local park and in the driveway, and overall try to just stay busy. Somewhere the lazy side of life had managed to slip back in and I noticed that we were doing way more delivery type foods. Needless to say, I have gained some weight back and I am not too happy about that. At least though I have managed to stay in my skinny workout pants! This week, I started tracking my food again and last night we hit the gym and I am determined to keep at it.

I love the feeling of a good work out and I was soaked last night in sweat. My wife had met a friend at the gym, so I was all alone and I honestly was half tempted to not even go. I made myself though and I will continue to push myself because I like the increase in energy, the positive feelings I have after lifting weights, and the overall confidence you get when you do start losing weight, and to help me stay accountable... I am putting it out here.

Honestly, that is a little scary because the internet can be a cruel place, but it also can be used as motivation. Especially now with all two of my readers seeing this post! I weighed in this morning (Wednesday, July 22, 2020) at 361.2 pounds. That number sounds so very, very bad, but I am confident that it will come down and I would encourage and even invite all of you to join me on this journey. I want to be around long enough to see all of my children graduate from high school, graduate from college, establish themselves in their careers, get married, and eventually... a long, long, long time down the road, spend precious time with grandkids. The only way that will happen is if I push myself to watch what I eat, give 110% at the gym, and continually look for ways to improve myself.